Tuesday, June 2, 2009

What I think I should do and what I really want to do

Sometimes, what I think I should do and what I want to do are two different things. Which should I go with? What I think I should do, or what I really want?

I’m having to make some serious decisions about my future that will affect the course of my life. One of my best friends who was counseling me pointed out my problem: I’m torn between what I think I should do and what I really want. She recommended that I go for what I really want. I think that’s a marvelous idea.

I want to apply this same principle to blogging. I haven’t been blogging very much at all lately because I feel like I should write about certain experiences like my safari, the wedding, my three-day weekend, etc, but I don’t really want to write about that right now. So much has happened! Whenever I sit down to start, I become overwhelmed by everything I want to say, and this task of describing the indescribable feels too monumental, so I end up not writing at all. Writing becomes something I feel like I “have” to do, not something I want to do.

So... I won’t write about my travels yet. I’ll write about whatever is on my mind, which lately has had more to do with my students and my mixed feelings about leaving than my travels. When I’m in the mood to write about my travels, I will. If I end up writing a book about Ghana (you never know, it could happen someday), they would definitely find their way into there, so you’ll just have to buy the book! If not... ask me about it when I come home, and I’ll tell you all about it in person! Wouldn’t that be even better? I’ll post pictures soon, hopefully, and give you the link, but in the meantime, I’m going to do what I really want to do. I missed lunch today, so right now, I really want to eat dinner. Bye!


Jason 'Star' Rice said...

It is almost always better to go with what you really want to do; what you think you should do generally comes from wanting to please others, which is almost impossible anyway (and tends to make you miserable in the process).

I know what you mean about the whole blog thing...don't worry about what they want to hear, that will come out enough on its own, just write what comes from the heart. From what I have learned, this is truly what people want anyway.

DeeDee said...

Makes sense to me. I totally agree with Jason. I love reading your blogs but I certainly don't want you to feel obligated. I'm just as happy reading about your everyday life as well as your adventures! Love you Kate!